I understand it

I always think positively that one day in the future or at any time, i will be better, i will not become a stressful person anymore, i will live a much better life than now; then now I realize that there is no such a thing. It's you who determine what you want to be and how you want to be. It's not about the next 5 years that you will become someone is much better than today. If you do not understand this, your whole life will just be the same, you are just a kid, ungrown man. I have to decide now, what types of lifestyle I want to be. Do I want to follow my stupid thought all the time or do I want to get out of it and try to get where you want? I always think of suicide and hopeless. That's my thought. I can get out of that and point out which type of life I want to have from now on because I believe that I will become a successful person. At the time being, I am not who I am, I am who I were. All the past, all the mistakes, all the stupid things i did in the past lead me to where I am today, so if I want to be a great person, I want to be a rich person, a beautiful person, a handsome person, a confident person, I have to do it from now on. From this second on, I believe that I can be whoever I want to be. I can get whatever I want to get. It is not that I am trying to think positive or optimistic. I am just being real. I just understand how life work and I work along the life. Life is so simple. If you face a problem, you try to solve it by yourself, sacrifice your time doing that. If you cannot solve it, you have to ask help from others. If others cannot help it or do not offer their help, you have to tell yourself that "Bitch Please! I did my best and the rest I will let it go" That's so simple. If you can't success in what you did at least you do not regret. You know what you are lacking of and you know whether you should improve yourself or not. The thing is what do I really want to live my life?
The way I want to live my life is simple. I want to try my best to solve my problems, all the problems, face all the problems bravely. Solve them because sooner or later, I will have to solve them, so solve them. After all the problems are solved one by one, the next steps is to keep finding the problems and solve more problems because life are full of problems. And problems will keep coming until you die because this is life. So problems are actually a part of our life, so just consider it as your friends who come to test you how strong you are to solve them.
Next step of my life from now on is to identify my dear problems and solve them.
It's like now, I think too much about how i am going to send my report to my GA, and I already did it. so problems solve, next problems now is that I am a bit hungry and i am not really sleepy yet. I have a lot of problems more to deal with tomorrow, so I need to get to sleep early.
Now, i will try to get something to eat a little bit and drink some water and then find ways to make myself relax. I'm not searching how from the internet, but I will searching from my experience.

Know how now... will do it and get to sleep now. Good night blog.