Honestly, I haven't done anything at all after the presentation on week 9. I think i have wasted a lot of time on that. I even dare not see look at it all. I have to submit it tomorrow and look at me now. Even just look at it, I dare not. I think i will just submit the old report that i have submit. Just edit it a little bit. Start editing from tonight 8-12, and then print it and submit it tomorrow.
Listen to me, there is nothing to be worried about. I may be worried about the test one, test 2 marks, or the others activities that i have missed, but don't worry, you are not going to fail. You still have time to cover up for your final. and about the report, I believe that your lecturer is not going to fail you, you prove him that you study hard for the next semeseter because this semester you have dealt with a lot of things. After tonight, i will plan for preparing for the final. There will be no happy time. I will not look at my score at all. Those are the pass only. I will just wait to see whether i will have to take any supplymentary exam or not; hopefully everything will be okay for me.
I expect to get C most of the subject for this semesters. However, I hope i won't fail anything. and I believe that they won't fail me anything. I strongly believe that. I just need to do my best on my final and prepare for the final semesters only.
The reasons why I am focusing on doing this is to take my 3 hours time of today. I have spent 2 hours reading the book about searching for myself and i spend one hour in doing this. I need to plan how i am going to do my report. There is nothing to plan much because whether I spend 20 hours on the report today, i still have a low mark from doctor teow, so i'd better do it fast and finish as soon as possible by tonight. Just copy and pass and he is not going to read anything about that i garantee.
Just keep it as a bad experience and try your best for the last semester, spend time on your project, do what you want, study the subject that you want, and go for sport and live your life. Forget about the last past semester. Everything was hell. From next semester onward, your life is going to shine.
So, I have finished talking about what i needed to talk, now i will talk about what I want to talk. What I want to talk here is about my goal and how i set myself to reach there. and how strongly i believe that i can reach there. I almost feel like I am there already at some point.
So, my goal is that i want to be rich in the next 5 years. I want to be rich because being rich is awesome. You can buy anything you want, you can have anything you want, you have any girls you want. So let's assume that I will be already rich in the next 5 years, i may want to buy a luxurious car to drive around, to flirt around with the girls that i like, to buy a house, and i may consider settle down with the right girl that i love.
How to do it? It is very simple. In order to accomplish this, i set myself to get up early before the sunshine and all the day time, i keep focusing on my work, keep observing whether there is any opportunity for me get rich, studying something new such as economic, accounting, piano, and others to see what i am really good at, try to change new jobs to see which job do i like the most, to focus on my current job to make my boss say something good about me so that i can get a better job, not to think about the money, to think about how improve myself everyday. So that's what i am going to do. I will wake up at 5 o clock and sleep at 11 o'clock. And i will spend exactly 12 hours on focusing on my job and improving new skills and finding new opportunity. And do some exercise, proper eating and so on. So now, I am asking you. How such a person who get up early everyday and go to bed quite late and keep improving himself everyday. How could such a person can't be rich in the next 5 years? It is impossible that he can't be rich if he does that all the time. This is true. He's going to get what he wants.
How much do I believe that this is going to happen? 95%.. I believe that this is going to happen for 95% because i know that he is not going to stick to what he plan for 100%, so it means that at least he will reach 95% to what he plans. Nobody is perfect. However, it's just an expectation and believe. who knows, maybe he will reach 110% of being rich.
Do I have anything to measure my failure or success to this plan? yes, I have. I have a score list to evaluate what is my score for each day. With that score list, i try to attempt to at least not fail. I will try to do anything to get myself back to the right track because being rich is always in my head. And rich person do what he wants to do and he's not lazy. He keeps trying to find the opportunity for his life.
Here is what i might have for the next 5 years.
1. A car
2. A house
3. dates or fall in love, or trying to flirt with at least 10 girls
4. Learning new skill such as economic, accounting, marketing, piano, drumming, improve guitar skill, spychology skill, kid skill, flirting skill, cooking skill, computer skills, administration skill, bribing skill, communication skill, mechanical skill, electrical skill, pumping skill, key skill, persuading skill, running a company skill, seeing people skill, taking care skill, business skill, advertising skill, getting along skill.
5. a good health with 60-65 with beautiful outlook and handsome and most of all charming because of being rich, smart, open-minding, caring, and looking into the eyes while talking.
Why am I so sure that this things is going to happen? Because I have tested it my own experience when i was in grade 12. In grade 12, i wrote on the top of the paper that I want to get A, and I list of how am going to get A and i strongly believe that i will get A. Everyday, i have this routine which i keep doing that leading me to get A, and i keep evaluate myself every night by giving score to the activity that i am involve with. At the end, I got only C which almost B. I was a bit disappointed, but there is much more that getting A was happening to me. I got 3 scholarship, i have met many good friends; people recognised me. A lot of good things rather than A, so in this case, I plan for being rich, and I am sure that even though, i may not get a house yet, or a car yet, or haven't complete those activities yet, but by that time there will be a lot of opportunity rather than just being rich is waiting for me there. Maybe it's much better than you think, so just keep dreaming on your goal and go for it. Act like you already have them, be disappointed if you really can't attempt for it today, try to make up for tomorrow, try to come back. This time, when i fail, keep coming back, read it and keep coming back. How many times have i failed before this? almsot 100 times already i guess, i have been feeling down a lot, but i still get up. This time with, this book i can know exactly how many times am i going to get up. And I strongly believe that as long as you keep getting up and go to the right track, you will be where you want to be.
I am not a phylosopher, i am just a simple person who was almost crazy at some points because of depression about myself. At some points, i was thinking of committing suicide just to leave the problems behind, but now i realize that nothing that we can't go through. Whether you fail or pass, it's just a life experience. It's good that you fail at young age because you know why you are fail. and you can learn a lot from them. Can you tell me how many times you fail and why?
1:I failed in year 2 at Civil class. I gave up the class, i didn't go to the class regularly. I can't go for training, so I drop my scholarship. and i told my parents i wanted to study international relationship.
2: I failed my first love at grade 8. I am a coward, i didn't even talk to the girl that i like.
3: I failed my second love at grade 12. I loved a girl, she likes me back. i didn't even dare talk to her, so i gave up and go on my way to study.
4. I failed on my third love at year 1. I confess to the girl that i love with a bad environment. I never made her happy. i was shy and i didn't spend time with her, but i confess to her? what was i thinking? I was too brave without thinking of the result.
5. I failed as a teacher at the NewYork School. the more i taught, the less student is coming. I prepare very little for the class. i was not motivated to teach. The only motivation is to get the experience, and to be prepared for my final year at ifl
6. i fail to love 2 girls at IFL. Reasons i was too shy and no confident.
Most of the time, i lack of confidents due to the study effect. when i don't study hard, it will affect my relationshp as well.
7. I fail to study well on this university. I play too much with my seniors that i didn't spend time at all for my studying. Playing too much, never have time for my own self.
8. I fail to make myself happy many times, i guess i am stressfull 3 months/ year. so meaning i have 15 month of unhappiness during i am in malaysia, i have failed 1500 times to make myself happy and i keep finding the way to make myself happy.
So, these were the failures that i have. Overall, i fail almost 1600 times since i was born. Most of the failure are from fail to make myself happy, fail to lost my self out of control. However, i keep myself up by reading many self helps books, religious book, spiritual books and so on. I never give up. So even though , i fail another time, that would be ok for me. I just need to get up and fight
Now it comes to the conclusion. I spend my one hour well, and next i am going for jogging to make myself healthy. then i would come back and finish my report and submit them tomorrow. That's all. After tomorrow, i will do the same thing and prepare for my final exam.
All the best to myself.
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